why do we always have to move on
maybe because of my frequent refusal to pick up any incoming phone calls, my phone decided not to ring at all once and for all. so i am forced to do with a hard reset. But before i did that i backed up everything that's on the memory. Here i found a picture of my room in Whampoa few days before i moved out, December 2005, when i needed a little change badly at the time.
suddenly i miss that place, the build of the table is more solid than the ikea one i am using, the sunlight that wakes me up everyday at 12pm when i was still in Uni, walk out and grandma is always eating some leftover form the night before, and how i'd always snatch a piece of chicken or 2 before i go back to hku for studio sessions. After dinner with my family i always needed to hold back on cigarettes until they leave the flat, and how that first smoke in 6 hours soothes me before i start doing my late night MSN or go back out to CWB for some siu yea. life was slow, school was annoying at times, but at least you can feel it and make responses, unlike now, getting paid to not be yourself and doing things for other people's good (at least i hope it's good)
things moved on, everyone went their ways, and i guess i've moved on too. Shouldn't i be glad that i am learning new stuffs everyday (the painful way), shouldn't i be glad i am living by/on myself with my little salary every end of the month. shouldn't i be glad i am big and (sorta) healthy with 4 perfectly functional limbs and could take on everything about myself, by myself? Why looking back on the days when i was still being spoon fed financially by parents always seem so sweet.
1/4 of the year gone. Time flies as if there is no tomorrow, or the tomorrow is too soon. Isn't it a bad joke when LIFE is about meeting DEADline.
I dunno, god has given us a pair of feet to walk and a pair of eyes to look forward. at the same time life on earth has given us memory which drags people from moving forward. I must say, god is as bad a designer as I am, should've made everyone like david beckham, kicking a little ball, making random statements, enjoying his life with his wife and kids then the world would be one happy peaceful place.